[ firmly: ] You're more than your race, Bull, and you're certainly more than what the Qun made you. [ and that's really part of what confuses him about.. the two of them. bull's been away from the qun long enough to want other things, but he still won't just.. say that. and mahanon knows it's going to take time--maybe he'll never be able to open up completely--but it does make this nerve-wrecking.
he knows what this is going to do.. in the end. in the end, when they go back to their respective versions of thedas, this is going to hurt. if he says right now that he wants anything other than an occasional night, eventually, it's going to hurt him very, very badly, because he's going to go back and watch bull and dorian work things out between them. and even if he doesn't remember, there's always going to be something there that aches.
he glances down at the anchor, rubs his thumb over the mark.
to hell with it. he's used to a little pain. ]
.. I want to try. [ he finally glances back up again, pale eyes serious, determined. ] I want to see where it goes. [ a pause, and more softly: ] I don't want you to agree, though, if you're only doing it because it's what I want.
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he knows what this is going to do.. in the end. in the end, when they go back to their respective versions of thedas, this is going to hurt. if he says right now that he wants anything other than an occasional night, eventually, it's going to hurt him very, very badly, because he's going to go back and watch bull and dorian work things out between them. and even if he doesn't remember, there's always going to be something there that aches.
he glances down at the anchor, rubs his thumb over the mark.
to hell with it. he's used to a little pain. ]
.. I want to try. [ he finally glances back up again, pale eyes serious, determined. ] I want to see where it goes. [ a pause, and more softly: ] I don't want you to agree, though, if you're only doing it because it's what I want.