[After sending the previous text and reading it over a few times he feels it requires a bit more explanation.]
What I mean is
I’m not a critical thinker, especially in the moment. I know that about myself. I like to trust people, take them at face value; obviously not always the best thing.
I was thinking about what the Americans just did in Debrecen… I’m not happy about that. I thought we could trust them. And it occurred to me, the only reason I thought that was because they told us we could. I just accepted it.
And I realized the same thing happened at that seminar. You were right, obviously. Of course you were. But I just couldn’t see it. I was doing what I always do, assuming the best of people when I really shouldn’t, believing they were trustworthy because they said they were. It was stupid, and…
Bull, if they’d told me it was best, didn’t give me time to think on it, I would have fought for them. Considering how powerful I am, and Creators does that feel self-aggrandizing to say, I could have done a lot of damage. It was dangerous how much I trusted them.
I suppose what I’m trying to get at is that I don’t want that to happen again.
[This text got a lot longer than he had intended it to be, but there it is. He sends it quick before he can delete it all and pretend this serious business never happened.]
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What I mean is
I’m not a critical thinker, especially in the moment. I know that about myself. I like to trust people, take them at face value; obviously not always the best thing.
I was thinking about what the Americans just did in Debrecen… I’m not happy about that. I thought we could trust them. And it occurred to me, the only reason I thought that was because they told us we could. I just accepted it.
And I realized the same thing happened at that seminar. You were right, obviously. Of course you were. But I just couldn’t see it. I was doing what I always do, assuming the best of people when I really shouldn’t, believing they were trustworthy because they said they were. It was stupid, and…
Bull, if they’d told me it was best, didn’t give me time to think on it, I would have fought for them. Considering how powerful I am, and Creators does that feel self-aggrandizing to say, I could have done a lot of damage. It was dangerous how much I trusted them.
I suppose what I’m trying to get at is that I don’t want that to happen again.
[This text got a lot longer than he had intended it to be, but there it is. He sends it quick before he can delete it all and pretend this serious business never happened.]
text --> audio;
[He accidentally hits SEND instead of changing over to the audio recorder -- because this deserves an answer his text function can't really give.]
If it makes you feel any better, sometimes, it's a good thing to think the best of people. Maybe not always... but. Hell, optimism is hard to come by.
But... yeah, you're right. This time it was pretty shitty.
What do you need from me?
[Because this is where he sees this going. And, from the tone of his voice, he's fine with it. He's here if you need him, Lavellan.]